I was sitting in a floor-level seat at the Eagles concert in Los Angeles back in January. Although I was enjoying myself, I couldn’t shake the feeling of dread. I had performance reviews (along with my regular never-ending stack of work) waiting for me back in Fort Worth.
I was promoted to my first supervisory position, a Division Director with the US Department of Housing Urban Development, back in 2011. After rising through the ranks from a Student Trainee, it was the first time I began questioning if I had made the right decision.
Michael Roberts cites three signs you should consider a voluntary demotion: stress-related health problems, poor fit with the higher level position, and had more fun at a lower level job. Fortunately I was healthy (although maybe a little crabby at times), and I felt like I was a good fit for the position (I grew more confident with supervision over time and I received positive feedback about my performance). However, my previous job was fantastic. Management was very supportive, I had more flexibility with my schedule, I could telework, morale was good, and I had the time and energy to pursue other activities outside of work. But I had to make sure a voluntary demotion was the right choice.
In her article “A Report on the Importance of Work-Life Balance,” Melissa Abercromby emphasizes the importance of “self-management,” meaning that people need to control their own behavior and expectations. I tried to improve communication with my staff and also delegate more assignments. I stopped working through the lunch hour and got back to my old routine of going to the gym or occasionally meeting friends for lunch. I began limiting my access to work email when I was away from the office. Also, I stopped working on the weekends. But the biggest struggle I faced concerning work-life balance was turning the “off switch” when I left the office. My “to do list” weighed heavily on my mind, even when I knew I should be enjoying myself.
It was a very difficult decision. I didn’t want to feel like I was “giving up,” especially because I worked so hard to get to that level. I also enjoyed the work I was doing and the feeling of accomplishment. However, the pros of going back to my old job outweighed the cons, and in April I made the switch back to a Financial Analyst. I’m enjoying the aspects of the job I remembered (and missed!), and I am working on some challenging assignments. But now I have a better work-life balance, I am happier and less stressed, and I am able to pursue some new opportunities (like applying for a leadership program and blogging for GovLoop). In the near future I will be ready for the challenges of supervision and a promotion again, but I will choose wisely because it will be tough leaving this great job (again)!
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